Thank you for sharing! I have many similarities with you.
hugs...
I too have struggled with this April dear; I don't have the physical attributes of a genetic woman.
What I dis-covered was my own judgements on the labels. At this point of my journey, I do not use male and female any longer. Those are constructs I simply don't fit into. I am a transgender person? There's another construct in many ways.
I stopped the insanity for myself by refusing to fit into Any another construct.
I now choose to fit into my own personal creation by allowing the emergence of the character I am creating. I am no longer trying to pass, or fit into a construct; I am creating a persona I love, and the best part is that I am the only one of me on this entire planet. Unique, and beautiful and unlike any other person.
Just doing this I found really helped me find the inner freedom I have been aching for since I was a small kid on the army base Yaaaaaay!!!
Does this make sense Hon?
Thaaankyou so much for sharing this dear April
We will chat again soon Hon
Until then
Namaste'
n huggles for you dear; you inspire me 😉
Char
Hi April,
Any time we leave the familiar and step into uncharted waters it can be terrifying. Taking a small step forward and becoming comfortable before taking the next step can help, but I certainly know the fears and doubts that accompany each step. I hope you find the friendships and support here that will allow you to reach the destination you desire most and can enjoy the journey.
Hugs and all my best!
Gina
Hi April,
I know its been some time since you first posted this article, but I’m just catching up! Also, in reading your profile, I can see that we are in a similar space, adopting more open gender expression and moving towards transition.
Becoming a member of this transgender discussion group is one way that I acknowledged myself a transgender person. Over the past several years, I have also made a very conscious effort to be out, be seen and engaged in many aspects of my day to day life as a woman. As a single semi-retired person,I have the liberty of living as I wish, presenting as I choose most of the time. I am out to many former colleagues and as covid restrictions eased re-emerged and restored some connections with people locally. That being said, I am only out to a few family members and I expect that will remain the case at least for the foreseeable.
I do still struggle with self acceptance and with finding an acceptable balance between the life I prefer and the life I feel is expected of me. I am simply neither brave enough make a bold move nor indifferent to the possible consequences on relationships. There simply doesn’t seem to be an answer.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I hope to see more of your reflections in the months ahead.
Kim
Hi April.
Thank you for sharing your very emotional feelings with us. I am new on here and much of this article resonated with me.
Hugs, Wendy x
