Hi everyone!
I would first like to thank Vanessa for creating this wonderful site where we can express our femininity and make friends with girls who are truly amazing. Ever since the early age of nine, I've felt like a female. I was never into things that boys like. Over the years, especially during my teenage years, it was difficult being different. For awhile, I hid my dressing. As the years went by, I realized that I didn't care anymore what people thought and wanted to live my life as a woman.
Like so many of us, I married and my wife couldn't accept my gender identity. She mentally abused me to the point where I filed for divorce. I also lost family and friends but, to tell you the truth, it didn't bother me because I couldn't hide my true identity anymore. So I said “goodbye” to my past and looked forward to my future.
It took years to achieve my goals in life. Today, I am finally happy with what I see when I look in the mirror . After years of studying how real girls acted, dressed and communicated with body language, I have finally found out that I pass in public as a woman. People use female pronouns like “miss” or “ma’am,” and even “honey.” I'm very petite at about 5' and weigh about 120 pounds, so that helps. I've had no surgeries or hormones, but my long blonde hair is natural and my breasts are petite but noticeably protrude. When I went to the store the other day, the female cashier said “good morning, miss.” It made me smile. Later that day at the supermarket, a cute guy tried to pick me up and told me I was cute.
This happens almost every day in public, so knowing now that others perceive me as a woman makes my day. Like real girls, I don't wear makeup except if I'm going somewhere special and usually just wear mascara and light lipstick . I'll wear skinny jeans or leggings with either flats or a cute pair of sneakers and a feminine top. I love rompers -- they are adorable -- and I love shopping for new clothes and shoes.
I've been fortunate, almost losing my life a few times. In 2005, I had lung surgery for a severe pneumonia. I also had a massive heart attack this past May. Then, very recently – and I’m still trying to believe it because it feels like I’m dreaming -- I inherited a small fortune. I can now go anywhere and do anything. To all my friends here, please live your life for you, even if it means giving up everything you had because the rewards are worth it. Just like any other girl, I prefer the companionship of men. I haven't found that man of my dreams yet, but I'm sure he is out there. When that day comes, my life will be complete.
My name is Paige and I hope to make many new friends here.
So happy for you Paige. Glad you are living as your authentic self.
Hi Paige....what a lovely story...thank you for sharing. I am sorry that you have lost a family but found true happiness....a goal that many seldom achieve. Take care of yourself, watch your health and food intake. Be strong in mind and body. I have had 5 heart attacks, 3 years in Vietnam, surviving a shot down helicopter, 2 car crashes, pneumonia and 40 yrs with sled-dogs....Malamutes and siberian Huskies and a timber wolf. I refuse to give up, I won't stop fighting to live until they pry my sword from my cold dead hands! (I am a
Knight Templar) Live...be....happy.....let no-one stand in your way or prevent you from persuing your goals. I look forward to hearing more from you honey.....my door is always open...do come in.
Love....
Dame Veronica
Thank you for your kind words dear, you're most welcome!
And thank you for sharing your story - love your hope and optimistic attitude hon!
Paige, you are a blessed woman to be so Happy. Health does worry me as the men in my family usually do not see their 70th from stroke or heart failure. I can only hope that stopping the effects of testosterone will help me. I'm not as petite as you, but at 5'8" I still do not completely stand out and have found some very feminine looks that I now get maam'd a lot (I am south of the Mason-Dixon after all). But to be honest, the most peaceful day out in the world was not the numerous TG gatherings that make me feel alive and belonging, but rather when I went out after a fresh electrolysis clearing with just some mascara and a tinted lip balm. What a bright clear summer day that was.
Hugs,
Cloe
Thanks for sharing your story Paige.
I'm sill very early into transitioning compared to you but your story brings hope and probably not just to me.
It's also awesome to hear another lady here who dresses basically the way i do...I call it the Soccer Mum look.
Best wishes Cami xx
Well I'm happy for you Paige, transcending from one world to another. In Buddhism, there is no finality just moved beginnings....
Experiences when going to the supermarket or to the shopping mall..... Even the hardware store.... I can be dressed in my black jeans leather boots riding jacket or I can be wearing shorts for the top and sandals... I still get responses from both men and women who each one identifies me as one or the other.... And compliments me on it... What world do I fit in? Whatever comes along and just being happy with myself and my friends and family. Go with the flow... That my family has many artists in it.... It's not uncommon for us to have friends that are straight that are gay that are bi... And in the end.. we are all just Human After All..... Wish everyone peace, love and happiness
What a lovely story but with sadness and sorrow. Your story is a beacon in the dark night of uncertainty and indecision for those of us still trying to come to terms with the potential loss of family and friends if we transition. I can see by your article you are truly happy now and that is the most important part of finding out who we are. My best wishes for you, I pray that you will find your true love. Thank you so much for your wonderful article. Love ❤️ and hugs 🤗
Danielle 💋👠