I have been in the hospital for just over a week with a few days to go. Often in the situations there is often considerable time to think.
What came to me was startingly simple, even for one who is enamored with the concept. Think about this from the perspective of a trans person.
All we are trying to do is fit the life we want into the life we have.
You know, it may be just that simple. Please let me know your thoughts.
@flatlander48 First DeeAnn, I pray that whatever brought you to the hospital is rapidly leaving and you fully recover. And speedily. "All we are trying to do is fit the life we want into the life we have" has got to rank up there with the best quotes of all times. Yes, dignity and respect are hallmarks of every person's dreams and aspirations, irrespective of anything else, regardless of our station in life. The biggest of hugs
Wishing you a speedy recovery, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sometimes it's hard blending your old life into your current life. For me it's a new beginning, a life I always wanted. So we just do our best and try to stay positive. I hope you feel better soon.
Hugs
Kimberly
@flatlander48 Very well stated sister. All I want to be is left alone in my less than average home...(Rockwell, Somebodys Watchin' Me
Sorry to hear you are in Hospital DeeAnn, hope you are home soon!
How we fit the true self into the shell we have been given is certainly a big ask. Most of the time is being caught between a rock and a hard place. A limbo in many ways.
All I know is I don't have all the answers but at least now I'm not lying to myself anymore. If people don't like me...at least they don't like the real me now ha.
Alex
Would I be, could I be, given the chance, that image of me that so often dances in my dreams?
However briefly.
Would one moment suffice, to quell this lifetime of want?
Maybe just an afternoon of bliss, spent walking a bucolic town, letting me skip and laugh away the hours in a skin that feels..... right.
Could I then be satisfied, would I then be able to accept this body that I was born in? This body that lays somewhere between the two realms of he and she.
To have a taste of what has been denied me, could I then return to this drab excistence of continually pretending, pretending to fit the image that others see?
Or
Given the chance.....would I do as
“Powder” did, cease to exist on this plane?
Shedding this flawed rendition, to exist elsewhere in a form that I was meant to have.
Or at the least, to live in a world more accepting of my differences.
I wrote this one awhile ago hugs DeeAnn hope your feeling better 💋
Hi Deann, I do hope you are feeling better and will soon be back to health.
Your thought, "All we are trying to do is fit the life we want into the life we have." is so spot on. This truly is one of the most succinct yet so correct ways of 'splainin' our selves.
In the south they say, "she's trying to put 10 lbs of 'taters in a 5 lb sack." Eventually the sack rips or you just can't carry all the 'taters.
Yes, we either truly disrupt the life we have should we decide to fully live the life we want. And if we don't make that decision, we must leave some of the life we want behind.
Sigh - sadly only a very few of us can successfully have both.
Kindly,
Charrie
I hope you get better soon, DeeAnn.
I think I try to navigate the path of my existence in the most pleasant way possible.
Gisela