Barbie Boy Clip 😞😞😞

Yeah, the tears were flowing.  Shame has built so many closets.  My first two attempts at expressing myself resulted in shame from family then friends.  The rest of my closet I built myself, piece by piece, to keep from feeling that shame again.  Think I'll go get that Barbie I never got.

Yes I always wanted one when I was little too.  😍  Funny thing is my sister always wanted legos that my parents must have spent a fortune on buying the boys but not her. She jokingly mentioned it a few times and I joked that I never got any Barbies.   I actually bought her a set for a birthday when we got older, but I never did get my Barbie in return. 😞 The fact that I have two daughters means we do have a ton of them around the house, so by default I kind of have them.  And I did get to play with them again when my girls were at the age as I am one of those weird parents who actually play with and talk to my kids.

Hi Miri,
I was in tears at the end. I played with Barbies because I had some girl friends who I played with when I was very young. But the part which hits me emotionally is seeing Bobby dropping Barbie and laying his head down. This just caused me to tear up because of memories which I thought long lost. I have been remembering that I’ve always been more emotional than the boys around me but kept the tears hidden well. Did either of you notice this at some point along the way? Since I figured out who I am I’ve been able to open my emotions and be more myself and feel things at a deeper level than before, all without HRT. I am sure this is more me than I have been since I was a youngster of about 5 or 6. Thank you so much for the clip Miri. Love ❤️ and hugs 🤗
Danielle 💋👠

I did too.  Now I'm waiting for grandkids that want to play with them.

I do not know if I am more emotional then the average guy or not, However I trend to think I am, and I certainly think way different then a lot of guys on a bunch of subjects, also my reactions to things are not the same.  I cried of course when I 1st saw both Titanic and Brave Heart in the Theaters.  😞 I even shed tears while reading Lord of the Rings when Frodo decided to take the ring to Mordor. 😢 I am fairly sure my guy friends did not.  I truly love emotional movies, and find my self watching and enjoying the preverbal chick flick at rimes. And i agree with the theory, that Jenny Weasly used a live potion on Harry as there is no way he fell so hard.  😜

I have actually watched many a chick flick and enjoyed them but if asked before I had my epiphany I wouldn’t admit to it. Now I will admit that I enjoy them to anyone if asked. I cried during the movie Yesterday because I got sentimental about the Beatles music which my father played on his guitar. He passed in 2013 and as the oldest I remember more of his music playing than my brothers, hence my sentimentality. So I do think we have a
different thought process and emotional process than a AMAB person. Those of us who realized who we truly are later in life have subdued feminine thoughts and emotions longer so were better at it in the long run. But now the floodgates are open and everything is spilling out. Ah Frodo and Samwise on their journey into darkness. I don’t remember any tears in that series of books but I had tears when I did read one mystery romance novel. I just felt right reading that book even though it took place in England during the mid eighteen hundreds. Still emotionally I am much more open since I know I am female in this body I was born with.
Danielle 💋👠👗

I think before my understanding I was still emotional and let them show a bit more then a normal cis male. Personally I do not think it is ok even for a grown woman to run around in tears all the time and she must hide her feelings.  This is part of a woman’s mysterious nature.  She knows how to laugh when she is crying 😢 inside.  Men just brood or sulk and it is easier to guess what he is feeling.

As little girls learn to be part of socal circles they learn to hide them selfs with in the circles as woman can be very caddie at times, and they get hurt if wearing emotions openly.  But society keeps telling them they are emotional  and mysterious.  So they become more so and learn how to do it with ease.

Boys are taught to be tough little men and that they don't feel that emotional stuff.  So they just pack it in and do not learn how to hide in plan sight. Hence the man caves where they go. So it is actually easier to read what a man is feeling then a woman.

However it is not all societies fault as society is just a reflection of how the minds of many people work.  So the minds and society reinforce one another and force the non-conformers into molds that do not fit.

As transgender people we have been forced but the mold is so wrong it eventually breaks and we emerge and have to craft/recraft ourselves vs have society do it for us.  As society gets weaker in this forcing the freedom of the non-conformers will grow.  We are like the new hippies of the 60’s, the bohemians of the early 1900’s, the romantic’s of the 1800’s and the list goes on and on back into history. Just as gays and lesbians were part of the sexual revolution, we are part of the gender revolution and really should not be lumped in the same group even if we have a lot of similarities.  One of the main reasons why even gay people do not get us at times.

Wow, 😉  kind if went off topic on that didn't I.

Back to emotional shows.  I loved to watch Hallmark movies with my mom when I was a little kid.  And liked a lot of the girls shows like Full House, Saved by the Bell, etc.  Would have watched Hana Montana and the like had I been part of that generation. I was always kind of a loner, and my dad was not the most manly to force me to be so, he was a George McFly type.  He was/is however a homophobic of the 50’s -60’s and my mom was a great house wife so I still feel into society’s trap just in my own way.