Saturday mornings and blouse-browsing

I'm new here, so please forgive me if I'm making a post in the wrong area.  But I wanted to reach out to new friends, and since I am much more aligned with a female identity, I thought TGH is a better forum than CDH.  I wanted to express my contentment and happiness for how far I've come in the last month towards accepting that I am a woman, after making a decision this past autumn to stop resisting "it."

This morning I woke up in a beautiful yellow floral nightgown.  Got up, made coffee, and enjoyed my quiet time soaking up the female vibes I'm now allowing myself to absorb.  A little later I stepped into the shower, shaved some stubby legs, then a pat dry.  After dressing in my pre-selected bra, panties, and pantyhose, I was thrilled this morning to finally have a skirt to wear.  And it fits perfectly.  As do new white flats.  I picked out an existing mens shirt in a matching color, and then I was ready for housework.  (Which is now finished).

I have questions.  I don't think I am most accurately only a crossdresser.  Maybe I luxuriate in panties and stockings.  But it's like... relief.  Relief to live here, as I can, alone, as a woman. To have, I think (or I guess) the emotions and the desires of a woman.  I love that I can wear a flattering bra all day, every day.  It's like a need.  It seems from what I've read that CD's are most commonly wanting to wear for a little while, or 1-2 times a week, etc., and then they are fine.  They go back to their hunting, or tire repair, or other masculine pursuits.  I'm not like that.

If I didn't have kids and who are now living lives of their own...  My woman-ness, my situation in life - it has germinated and blossomed after they already had come along and I think for me, to ask for or expect their acceptance, maybe there is only so far I can go towards my dream.  

But back to my shirt for today. I have to at least pretend I'm a man when I'm out. I'm constrained by my location in a small-town, the kids, etc.  But I want to find women's shirts.   It can be just a long-sleeve Oxford button-down.  I don't want to wear a man's.  So the challenge is in the sleeve length, and so far I've only found one brand, a VERY major brand ($54) that comes in like, a 16T (Tall) for example.

Well, thank you to all for letting me share.

Gina