Thanks Cloe...I will give that a try. I really value the relationship and would hate to lose her from my life. And at this point, I don’t have much to lose. I have a number of books that I can give her. Is there anything in particular that you would recommend?
Dawn 🤷♀️
I am a bus driver for King County Metro. It was never difficult for me and I have always been full time female at this job and got it after my surgery. I've had this job for about 3 years now and have never had a problem with anyone thinking that I'm anything but a woman and that is exactly how I like it. I guess having developed a feminine voice that it just comes natural for me to speak that way and no one even thinks that I'm a man. People say, yes ma'am to me all the time so having no issues makes it more comfortable for me. No one even knows or thinks that I was ever a man.
My day starts at 4:30am. It's about a 15-20 minute drive from my house to the bus garage where I park and go punch in. Then I go into the garage and log into the bus I will be using, whatever bus is available. After that I start my bus up and get everything set up on the bus and put not in service on my header. Then I pull the bus out of the garage and drive to the transit station. Then I put the route on my header that I will be on and start my route. My first run is at 5:00am. It's a lot of fun I love it. I use to like buses when I was young going to school for some reason and found out about this job and they called me. I have female on my drivers license and my drivers license picture matches my face so I feel really good and not worried at all about anyone second guessing me or giving me a second look.
The route that I am usually on it takes about 50 minutes to drive to the other end of the route on the bus. I drive this route up until 8:00 before taking my first break until 10:00 and then drive again until 1:00. Then I have one more run I do at 3:00 until 4:00.
I really like it and there are other women that are drivers as well so I don't feel alone. There are men that drive as well. It's really a nice job.
OMG, been waiting and waiting for my tax return so that I could girl up and personalize my wardrobe. My clothes came today! I finally have a secondsecon of long pants I can wear that actually go down to my feet! My second pair I ordered don't go as far as I thought, but the other pair fit like a dream.
Got two shirts, one has a cute pastel Marvel logo and superheroes that I thought my boys would like. Wanted the DC shirt that just had girls on it, but the logo on this one is pretty. Got another cute shirt with cut out shoulders, my wife didn't like that one.
Got my shoes yesterday. Finally have a pair of women's shoes I can wear when I'm dressed! Sadly, ordered them a size too big. I'm 11/12 mens, ordered a 13. Also, they fit slightly better with my men's socks, after I got a pack of Disney Princess socks to wear them with.
And I can't wait to try on my dress! I finally have my own dress! Not allowed to wear it in front of the kids though...or my wife probably, she hates the thought...but I want to wear it SO BAD!
And the rest of my day was ok. Finally took my car to get fixed. Hope things turn out well.
Finally got to try on some of my clothes only got underwear got 3 new bras and 6 panties more now just wished I got matching pairs of bras with panties got a thing about that ....and got a nighty that wish I could wear this at home but go over to a friends house to dress for a day can't wait for my first dress to come over there gonna be almost complete then.........was girl day yesterday and loved it...
I can't share my day with someone when I can't talk to them. That is my biggest wish right now, just to openly talk to someone about all this. I am brave, and I am strong, but I am so incredibly alone.I'll not allow myself to cry right now.Throughout my life, I've always managed to be the needy persons friend/helper/co-conspirator, whatever the person needed. Now at this singular time in my life, I need a "me". The weight of silence is crushing. Am I tough enough? I better be. And my heart goes out to all those who are not as tough as I, although that remains to be seen. But I shall persevere. Ever onward. Anyone reading this that feels these things, have heart! Because if this does not break me, perhaps it will not break you either. Regardless of my outcome, I am still and ever will be that friend/helper, and I never have failed anyone in dire need. I wish I could clone myself, then I could help me, too.
David, I relate to your story so strongly, it could be me you are describing.
I have had people - complete strangers - walk up to me at a bus stop and within 3 minutes have launched into a regaling revery of the past, fascinating tales about fascinating people, the good the bad and the downright gruesome, and then... never see them again.
I used to think, wtf?!? And then I realized that they sensed in me that I'd seen my own struggles, and I could handle their shit, too. It's a compliment in a very real way. But we need to be aware of some key signs that we need to put up a wall, at least for a time.
There are two types that call upon my ear - dump, laugh about it, heal and grow... and emotional vampires that will bleed you dry until it affects OUR good health.
I am still learning, too. Maybe we should chat privately?
Stephanie xo
Hey everyone
I had a happy but scary thing happen yesterday . I came out to all of you that i am transgender and hopefully soon will start the process. I told my long time friend yesterday and he was very supportive as i knew he would be. The hardest one was my cousin . She lives in new york . I was really scared to tell her but i worked up the courage. She took a little time to reply but she was very supportive. I dont belive i will tell anyone on my dads side of the family because wheni was 15 and felt complete and happy wearing womens clothing and dreamed i was a woman. I got punished for it twice. Its why ever since i have hidden it from the world.
Thank you for sharing your day. I am happy you do have support.
Would you happen to have any updates, and have you spoke to anyone on your days side of the family?
