This old post caught my eye. It sort of reminds me to the "end of the beginning" speech by Winston Churchill. Life seems to be full of these moments of clarity.
From the The end before the beginning! Forum post by Angela Tepesch awhile back; "So... Last night I had the second conversation with my wife regarding me coming out. The first she was in a bit of shock, but now she has collected some of her thoughts and determined where she stood. My wife told me that she understood and that the mental part of my transition happened years ago and she was ok with that. However as far as the physical side goes, she would stand by side as my best friend but she just can’t be attracted to a female body. I already knew that it was going to be this way. In our 9 years married +3 together she has always talked about how she like the lumberjack/ 90’s biker look. You can’t get more masculine than that. So dead before it started. I get to be Angela through my brain, and in my heart, but to be able to keep my soulmate I have to keep the equipment. I don’t blame her, when we were married she married a 6’ 260lb hillbilly, she just didn’t know that I was a scared screaming female trapped in a body that was foreign to me. I told her that I was saddened by her choice but I respected it and would abide. I can be me in every way but surgically, I have read stories where others have gotten less. I told her I thanked her for her honesty and told her about tgh and that there where groups that she could talk in(she is not ready for that). I am sorry about the rant just needed someone else to hear my heart because my wife will never truly understand the hurt."
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