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I don't care about 'passing' anymore!!!

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(@rebeccaingresham)
Active Member     United States of America, Oregon, Portland
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I've only realized I'm trans a little over a month ago and when I first started thinking about dressing up in public I decided that I would wait until I see a beautiful feminine face in the mirror from hormone therapy.  I didn't want to push things.

Now I've been on hormones for only 5 days but I'm really feeling different about passing.

Now I feel that it is important that I do my part, b6 not 'passing' to show the world that there are lots of people like us around, more than ever!   And it makes me feel so wonderful to show myself off, even if nobody else is going to like it!  I don't care!

 

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

 

 

Love,

--Rebecca Dawn

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(@rebeccaingresham)
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And here's a photo of me not passing, right before I went to my hrt appointment 🙂   I know it doesn't look like much in this picture but it was my first time dressing out at all, and it sure felt great.

 

https://ibb.co/9bcFTsL

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(@michellelarsen1)
Noble Member     United States of America, Virginia, Front Royal
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Rebecca, while I do understand polls, I have always felt they left out some options. Don't misunderstand, but I'm just more of the narrative, expressive type. My doctors and the hospitals want me to take surveys, but instead I just wrote them letters. Anyway, back to your poll..... The term 'passing' is such a subjective word to many. For example, I am 65 and you can guess my hairline is receding just a bit. Okay, a fair amount. But I see some older women in stores that have thinning hair like mine, so for now I'm okay with things. So 'passing' can mean a world of things. To me, the big thing is 'do I feel good about me'? and the answer to that is yes. But I also understand your context. Do I 'pass' enough to at least look like I fit in the world; or some similar thought. And asking, and thinking, about that question shows a degree of caring about the others around you feel, so as not to make them uncomfortable. I applaud you being courteous enough to care. Hugs, Michelle

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(@flatlander48)
Noble Member     United States of America, California, Cathedral City
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Rebecca:

This is a very significant thing that many trans people agonize over. The important thing is to figure out what works for you. Some are of the opinion that you MUST pass, but that thought process creates a lot of terrible feelings for those who don’t. To me that is unfair. For sure folks need to do what they feel is best, but trying to extend that to what we all must do isn’t appropriate.

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(@alexl)
Estimable Member     United Kingdom, Wiltshire, Marlborough
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Hi Rebecca and it is an ambiguous question. Once again I find my self onside with Michelle Larsen. Passing in what way, visual, clothes, manner, voice? To feel you are what you want to be, all those boxes need ticking. Voice possibly more than any ( there is an amazing article on TGH for voice feminisation...I'm on the EvaF course now). If you sound and talk like a woman the visuals are far less important. So to pass at what distance? Across the street, in a queue for a bus or up close with a friend or loved one? Makeup and clothes get all the attention but I believe that is only part of picture. So yes I care about passing...but not just visually. X

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(@aubrey)
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I guess my thoughts are on this are more from a trans friend.  She is older and is six foot three with really broad shoulders and thinning hair.  She doesn't wear a wig. She grew out her hair and has a really nice feminine hairstyle.  You look at her and you just know she is not a "cis woman".  She even acknowledges it herself and she simply doesn't care what other people think.  She is happy with how she looks and acts and presents herself to the world.  It is what has and does work for her.  Sure she gets all the usual comments that we all hear.  She just shrugs and goes on her way.  How she feels internally she has never shared with me, nor have I asked.

As I begin my transformation journey, I was at first very concerned with the term "passing".  I have started going out fully dressed.  The more I go out in public I am finding that I am becoming more comfortable.  Not in close-up spaces yet.  I am still concerned with the "passing the eye test".  Will I ever get there? I don't know.  Out walking through my apartment complex and walking through the neighborhood in which I live, I am beginning to be comfortable being the woman I am.  I have been up close to people as I pass them and they have looked at me and kept on walking by.  If they have noticed anything, they have not made any comment to me.  I know one day that will change.  How I will react, I don't know.  I will figure it out when I get there.

So I say you have to do what makes you feel validated and feel comfortable with.  That is all that really matters in the end.  I too agree the term passing is a pretty broad general term. what you consider passing another may not.

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I make an effort to be passable when out in public.  I do appreciate it when I get compliments, but if people are critical of me, I don't let it bother me.

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I use to go out shopping fully dressed on a weekly basis. I was on hormones and passable, I always took care to blend as best I could. I had my share of cat calls and was exposed on a few occasions. I can tell you one thing, passing while out  shopping with my wife was the best experience..... I am struggling to get back to that now. Oh well ... Off to do my Sweating to the oldies dvd ! Never give up ladies

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