Hi, I'm Nathan. I'm a transmasculine non-binary person who is still figuring out where exactly on the gender spectrum I sit. Some days I feel agender and others I just want to pass as male and live that way forever. I've filled out all the forms to start T with Gender GP but keep second-guessing whether it's what I really want and not submitting it. Feels like a big (and expensive) step when I don't know if I'll even like it. If you could just buy the gel and have a go I'd probably have tried it by now.
Anyway, that's where I am right now. Pre-everything except for a name and wardrobe change, and unsure whether I want to dive into medical transition.
It's nice to meet you all.
Hello, Nathan,
I urge you not to fly right into testosterone. It sounds like you are very unsure right now.
I had to ask myself if I was crazy or not wanting to change my external appearance to a girl. I finally decided I had to seek a therapist to help me decide if I was crazy and help me decide my direction. It was during my counseling sessions that it became clear to me to go forward with my transition. I was never told I was crazy, even after I asked my therapist if she thought I was.
Middle ground, although it no longer am.
I go by JAKe and Jeri, too.
I am unsure, but I feel like if I don't try it I'll spend the rest of my life wondering if I should. I've been researching transition and considering it and putting it off and trying to convince myself I don't really need it for about 17 years. Never found a therapist who will engage with the issue.
Nathan,
I'm very surprised of no therapists wanting to discuss this with you. I guess it's possible not being able to find one depending where you live. I live a little more than an hour from the office of mine, but we have done all virtual visits, even after Covid subsided. I searched a psychology website to find not only psychologists, but psychiatrists and therapists interested in transgender. My just so happened to specialize in it.
Best to you. I still urge you to look for one. I think I went to Psychology Today for my search.
JAKe/Jeri
Hello Nathan,
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Glad you are here. Looking forward to seeing you on the site.
Terri Anne, Ambassador
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