Hello all

Hello, I’m new here, I call myself Seraphina. I’ve been exploring the inner me for a few months now since telling my wife about my being a lifelong closet CD.

Far from quelling my conflicted feelings this series of events seems to have opened up a new growing gender dysphoria that seems to have come from nowhere. I’m now desperate for more. I’ve been talking to two different therapists specialising in gender issues for two months and I’m certain that I want to transition. I’ve told my wife that I want to try hormone therapy. We’re still working on what this means for us. I dearly want her to come with me on this journey.

But then I keep going round and round with these thoughts, questioning my feelings. Is this a reaction to having reduced dressing time over lockdown? Is it because I’ve been reading about CDs and trans issues and interacting on the sister site CDH a lot over the past weeks? Testing myself with the common thought experiments: would I like to be a girl now if there were no consequences? Yes, I think I would.

I’ve no idea where I’m going, but I’ve been soooo thankful that I’ve found CDH and now this place too.

hugs to you all

Seraphina xx