Hello everyone

hi A S,

im new here but have been out in the community for a while, twice your age, so be comfortable with who you will become and become that person at your own comfort level, its a marathon not a sprint.

be well....

Hi Welcome ti TGH. I too have dealt with tremendous anxiety and depression. It is very common in our community. When i first joined CDH I was looking for answers for why crossdressing and being a female was so important to me. It has been with me my entire life. I did not like the fact it became so consuming in recent years.  I have given into this feelings so many times in my life only to denial and self hatered. Some how I managed to get married have children and now I am a grandfather of 5 children. The whole time dealing with those feelings that somethimg was wrong. It was horrible but i dealt with it as so many of us have. I guess we just get used to it.. My last comming out lasted about two years. I was about 35 years old. I went on a crazy buying spree . I was having so much fun putting outfits together. I joined a club that had crossdresers and transgender woman. They were known as transsexuals back in those days.  It was wounderful. We would go out clubbing and events all dressed . During that time my wife found a bag of my fem clothes that i was just about get rid of. I was so happy I felt every thing was right. It was the time to be happy full time all the time. I am not sure what happened but i went into denial again . I got rid of all my beautiful clothes. I never went back to the club. I went to psychiatrist and began therapy with a psychiatrist not a therapist for some strange reason. I made a big mistake I never told her about my hidden secret of wanting to be like other woman. It could of been settled right then. I screwed up . Now i am 65 years old back to were started thirty years ago. I was able to bury those feelings with medication that was given by my psychiatrist. I spent twenty years in theropy twice a monrh medicated for a illness i did not have. How's that one. I simply just had to tell the truth to this Dr. She would of helped me . I was so ashamed of wanting to be a woman when i looked like a man. Anyway please look around read about others who have joined and shared some of their story. I believe you will find people here have alot in common with you and you with them

Please enjoy while learning Luv Stephanie

Welcome to TGH A S! We hope you can share your experiences with us and that we get to share with you as well. Each journey starts with a few steps. Just be sure to enjoy it as much as you can wherever it leads.

Hugs,
Ambassador Cloe