I have loads on my mind however this is an intro so I will attempt to make it brief. I came looking for a community such as this and so far I am happy with what I've discovered. I still have memories of when I was young of trying on womens clothes, looking in the mirror and wondering (in what felt like an innocent way at the time) what it would be like to have breasts, a vagina, long hair, a nice smile and consider myself "cute" in a way that still to this day I dont always feel I was as a boy. Today for the first time, in a way that was different from what I thought when I was younger, I looked down and felt, discouraged, with the what I saw. I ran my hands up my legs, disgruntled that it wasnt smooth and soft. Saddened by the scruffy texture of my face and desiring more sensation on my upper torso. For the first time in my 25 years, I felt as though I didnt have the body I wish I had. I still dont know what to think of myself, what I am or what "label" I fit. Im not positive if this is a body image issue or some sexual desire. I feel very confused but comforted thus far by this community and by extension CDH. I am Anielle James. And I am glad I am here.
Hi Anielle.
First of all, you are not alone in your feelings.Β Some of us have been having those since early childhood, others are very late in life.Β Let me also say, labels are not necessary and are really just a tool to help conveyΒ how we see ourselves in a quick way.Β But the variety of ways people identify is actually quite large.Β All that really matter is knowing that you are you and what you feel is valid.
We want TGH.CDH to be safe places for you to make friends,Β learn about others experiences, ask questions and share your story.Β So settle in and enjoy what I like to call virtual home.
Hugs, Cloe
Hello Anielle. Lovely name.Β I totally concur with Cloe. I never fit into the traditional male role.Β I always desired a softer feel and touch. To me, boys were crass in the way they treated girls. Which only got worse as we aged.Β At first, I thought it was just the clothes and the sensual feel I experienced. But after I found someone that was not repulsed by my feelings and desires (I was 34) and started dressing at home, I realized it was much more. You might too. Just take your time and enjoy the journey.Β Just remember, there is nothing abnormal about you. The same creator made you and me that made Obama or Bush, Pitt or Julie Andrews or even the girl next door or down the street. We are as normal as any of our peers or idols. The amazing thing is, there is only one person that can say what is normal for you, and that is you.Β Your friends and family may 'think' they know what is normal for you, but only you and your creator can decide that and know for sure. Kind of like your hair. Only your hairdresser knows for sure.Β So put on your most comfortable outfit, sit down, relax and browse and chat. Learn more about this wonderful journey your creator programmed just for you. The most important thing to do right now is:Β Have fun discovering you!
With sister love, Reuby Louise
Hi Anielle,Β and hello from another new member.
As someone who is, let's say, moving towards the more maturer years of their life, I wish that that when I was younger I had access to the resources that are available today... I spent decades denying how I really felt and what I truly was. There is so much help and support available today that just wasn't around when I was younger, like TGH for instance.
So, please take my advice explore yourself now and see where that journey of exploration takes you - regret later in life is something you cannot reverse.
Forget labels too, be yourself - you owe it to you.
Hugs, Lianne x
