Hello from Shannon!

Hello Everyone!  I'm new here.  I officially joined late last month, but am just now getting around to my introduction and becoming familiar with Transgender Heaven (when I get a chance).  I began taking hormones (under supervision and care of my primary care physician and also of my therapist) only recently--late last month as well.  I had some concerns about how I was feeling with the differing hormones and while my care team said it was likely my own anxiety (I am great at producing anxiety) causing what I thought were side effects, my Doctor took me off of the spironolactone for now and I am only taking a small dose of estradiol (1 mg).  The change in medication and dosage was welcome on my end.  I am nervous about this step in my life and while I thought it would be like flipping a switch once I started hormone therapy, as in, "this is so right for me", I now wonder.  Perhaps I am more non-binary/bigender?  I know only I can answer this, but I wanted to join a group to help educate myself further.  I think the primary worry I have is how this new step in my life will affect my emotional and mental aspects and/or outlooks.  I like who I am internally, but I wish I was something else--not necessarily someone else, if that makes any sense.  So far, I am enjoying the benefits of hormone therapy, while I realize after two weeks may only be psychological:  less dysphoric mind noise, less anxiety, more feeling of rootedness and reason, possibility of reaching internal and external equilibrium.  I am completely fine with physical changes that accompany hormone therapy, but if I could get feedback on emotional and mental changes, I would greatly appreciate it!  Thank you so much for taking time to read!!!