For the first time in my life I may be starting to come to terms with being trans. I just booked a session with a therapist to discuss my gender identity issues and I am so full of emotions I feel like I could just pop. I want to talk more with people like me, so here's a little bit about myself.
I present as a man in my late 30's but have known since I was in elementary school that I would much rather be a girl. For a time when I was very young I just accepted that once I got on my own I would transition but at some point I gave up on that and kept putting off the idea.
Then, about 10 years ago after a period of really struggling with dysphoria I came to terms with my life and gave up on transitioning and I've been mostly at peace with that decision. I have coping strategies that aren't healthy but they work.
Recently a close friend came out to me as being trans and it shook me bad. She had just figured out who she really was and was immediately starting to transition. I am so happy for her but my god has it reawakened my dysphoria with a vengeance.
I spoke with some ladies online about advice on whether or not to come out to my friend. They suggested I seek professional help, which I've started the ball rolling on. I had never told anyone in real life about me until this week when I made the appointment with a therapist and it's made me almost giddy.
I'm not sure where things will go from here. I have a long term relationship with a woman who doesn't know about this side of me, but I suspect she would be accepting. I don't know if I actually want to transition or if it's just something I've thought about almost every day... for decades... The idea that I may be on a path to get help one way or the other is terrifying and exciting at the same time.
@jkatie If you've been thinking about it for decades then chances are it's not going away any time soon. Hopefully you can get somewhere with your therapist. I would say that, don't spend too long considering your options, time goes by so quickly & sadly you can't go back to put things right. Just be sure that you are doing what's right for you.
Sounds familiar to many of us Katie. Start with the therapist for sure. Hopefully they are a good gender therapist and can work with you in a positive manner.
i for many years ignored what i am trying to be a mans man despite how i felt inside when i was a kid and then a adult i seen girls and women and i did not want to be with them i wanted to be them with the hair makeup nails dresses and shoes i always hated what i seen in the mirror and i was always angry i hade a rage monster inside me because i hated who i was on the outside it was only recently i have to terms to what i am i told my wife i am trans and i want to be a woman she told me it is about time you found your self she was like you should of told me 10 years ago so we could start sooner to transition you to female she told me she married me for the person i was on the inside and now we can start to match the outside to the inside she noticed that when i told her my anger issues and rage monster went away and now i feel at peace on the inside i also have friends that will support and help me transition to the inside me on the outside
