@btwimrobin You may not realize it, but you said something that too many don’t know, or at least choose to ignore. We don’t “become”. We already “are”. The key passage is “Since childhood”. We know, at very early ages, that there is something different about us compared to our peers, but we have no understanding and no words for it. This is why conversion therapy doesn’t work. You can’t change something that is innate. When people try, it doesn’t end well.
So, I am glad that you are here. For many, it is a long road to get to this point, but that doesn’t make any difference. The point is that the road led here.
Are you connected with the trans community in your area? It is so very easy for us to get stuck in feelings of isolation and that isn’t helpful. We humans are social creatures and contact with, and support from our peers is always a good thing. Starting with the pandemic, many LGBT centers and organizations added online programs which can help logistics and/or scheduling.
I suggest that you complete your Profile page as it really helps other to understand you and your situation better. In many cases it also may also become a conversation starter as people note common interests or experiences.
Also, have a look at the Member Directory. Click on Social in the menu and then Member Directory. You may find other members that are close by.