Hi to everyone!
My name is Cathy and for the last 2 years I have thinking about transition. As long as I can remember, I wanted to be a girl, but family and society told me that I was a boy. I played sports and played with other boys in the neighborhood. I few times in my life, I tried on girl's and women's clothes only to purge with guild and shame. The last few years I have realized how I was wearing a facade, a false self of masculine toxicity and I was tire of it. Accepting the part that was stuffed away for decades became the awakening of my true feminine self. I am slowly moving forward with all this. For once in my life, I decided that I will not move backward in my life.
I hope to make some friends, share stories, chat, laugh and cry together.
Hugs,
Cathy
Cathy:
Welcome to our place! I hope that it will be a good experience for you.
Yes, your story is similar to many others. We suppress some very particular thoughts in an effort to fit in, get along, meet expectations, etc. But, later we find that we really needed to be and do something different from our previous lives.
I appreciate that you were very thorough with your Profile page. I think many don’t understand the significance of the page and that it becomes a living document as to how your life and journey progresses. You can update it at any time as you see fit. A post, however, cannot be changed shortly after it is entered. Further, the Profile helps others to understand you as a person.
We have a way to search for other members, in your case, in Illinois. Click on Social in the menu and then Member Directory. That will put you at the search utility.
Hi Cathy
I can so relate to your story. It was similar to my early life; I knew in 1977 (aged 5) that I didn't fit as my birth gender but didn't know why. I was too young to articulate how I felt but took every opportunity to wear female clothes, mostly my mum's.
My parents ruthlessly cracked down on this, by today's standards I was abused. No one ever took the time to talk to me and find out why. I was forced to repress my feelings, not only due to family but I grew up when Aids was in the news and there was a lot of homophobic abuse around. I suffered it as I was not interested in chasing girls (I felt like I should have been one).
After multiple nervous breakdowns, I decided in 2017 that I was done pretending I was male. Tomorrow, Feb 14th, is my 4 year Trannyversary. I've been living and dressing as a woman ever since. I am nowhere near so stressed, don't need my anxiety meds so much, am sleeping better and I have a wonderful circle of supportive friends who totally accept me as female.
Transitioning was the best decision I've made for my own well being. Most of my family accept my decisioñ, it's only my mum who still disapproves but she's on her own now.
Enjoy the journey, it's a wonderful one to explore yourself and your feelings. Welcome to the sisterhood xx
Feb 14th, is my 4 year Trannyversary
Wow, I love that term! Trannyversary
