I open my heart to you.

Hi ladies.

I'm not a new girl in town. I have been registering at Transgender Heaven for two years. A few days ago I realized that I still owe you my introduction. I think some of you know me from Crossdresser Heaven, where I've been a lady for six years. My life started to change when I registered at CDH. For the better. I began to understand myself more; my feelings and my frustrations. To manage my life in a more reasonable way. And I found in poetry a vehicle to express my femininity. An enriching hobby. 

I have wanted to be a woman for as long as I can remember. I feel strongly feminine. Sometimes overwhelmingly so. Although I don't think I was fully aware of being a transgender girl as a child, I grew up in a fairly hostile environment outside of my home. There was love in my home and this relatively helped me survive. 

Sometimes I don't feel so confident about being a transgender woman, despite identifying as such. It gives me the impression of being a ghost. However, it is true that I feel dissatisfied with the body I was born with. Habit has been powerful and sometimes makes me disconnect from my feelings and behave like an automaton.I have received professional help and it seems to be working. 

As a child, and it is a behavior that I have maintained, I identified with female characters, whether in comics, television series, movies or books. I even created some female characters to represent in my games. I remember an actress I called Queta Marble.Similar to the actress who was most impressive to me at the time and as an actress she could play any other woman that I admired. I put on my first panties around six or seven years old. When I was 11 or 12, I shaved my legs until some older guys noticed it and started bothering me angrily. I stopped doing it, but I still switched to using cosmetics, with little skill, a few years later. I continued to advance and in my twenties it was enough for me to dress like a woman once or twice a month. When I had the chance. Sometimes the intervals were longer. But when I could do it, I enjoyed it a lot.

My feelings and my way of living have been changing. About seven years ago I decided to use a female name and Gisela was born. As I said, my entry into Crossdresser Heaven helped me better self-identify, set achievable goals, and feel comfortable with myself. And when I received repeated invitations to join Transgender Heaven, it seemed like a sign of destiny and I jumped at the opportunity.
​Some personal difficulties kept me away from both Crossdresser and Transgender Heaven and I didn't visit them as much as I would have liked. Having overcome these problems, I have made a commitment to myself to participate more frequently in this community to which I feel so grateful and which has treated me so generously and with great affection.

You make me feel I belong here. 

Cinnamon kisses.

Gisela

P.S.:Two years makes one talk more than necessary, but I had a lot to say.