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(@casey)
Active Member     United States of America, Kansas, Johnson county
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi I'm Casey. I am a man and live as a man. Not by choice thou. I have always known  I was female inside. Never attracted  to women  but desired to be the woman I wanted to be. I have always been ashamed of the body I have. Ridiculed in jr high and high school for not being 1 of the guys. I have always hidden my dark deep secrets so no one knows. Severe  Depression and anxiety.  I have several stories I could  share. I am 50 now in good shape and healthy  but not living life. I do have a bf that us very supportive of my feelings and who I am. I'm looking for people that are in the same situation as I am that i can chat with. Maybe help me in my path to find happiness and my inner self. And just so u know i have worn high heels,female  clothes and makeup behind closed doors. I am very  nervous and scared but i know it's what i want. Thanks for letting  me open up here.

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(@iserveu65)
Estimable Member     Canada, Ontario, Norwood
Joined: 6 years ago

Hey Cacey, I'm Stephanie.  I think most of us are somewhere in grey area, as to being comfortable and accepting of ourselves in a complete way.

 

Relax, we're all on the same bus 🙂

Steph xo

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(@qtystephanie)
Estimable Member     United States of America, Massachusetts, Boston
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi Casey. You have arrived in a safe place where you can relax and hopefully learn more about yourself. We are all on similar journeys if you will. I arrived here because I was asking alot of questions about my true identity. I wanted to know. Why I have always wanted to be a girl when I was younger and now why is it so important to me to be a woman now at the age of 65. TGH allowed me to explore both those questions and I happy to say I found the answers with the help of the staff and reading the stories of alot of the members. The first thing I learned was I was not alone. That was so big for me. So I will say to you . You are not alone. Nice to meet you.  Luv Stephanie

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(@qtystephanie)
Estimable Member     United States of America, Massachusetts, Boston
Joined: 5 years ago

Casey I forgot to tell you the dress here is casual Heels are optional. Have a nice time. I know you will Luv Stephanie ❣️

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(@cloe-anne-webb)
Honorable Member     United States of America, Virginia, Fairfax
Joined: 6 years ago

Welcome to TGH Casey!  I was wonderful to chat with you.  I can't relate to the BF part of your journey, but I was 50 when things started to finally move in the right direction for me.  I'm always willing to answer questions.

Hugs, Ambassador Cloe

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(@casey)
Active Member     United States of America, Kansas, Johnson county
Joined: 5 years ago

Thanks for your sweet caring reply. You all are making me feel so alive. It's nice to know there are others like me. It gives me hope. I havent really had a chance to  to share my inner feelings with anyone. So it is comforting to have girlfriends.   Thank you all. Hugs to all.

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(@venusrising)
Active Member     United Kingdom, Dorset, Gillingham
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi Casey

I'm fairly new to this site too. I too began life as a gay man as I was not attracted to women at all but felt alienated my gay culture. It took me a while to realise that I was in fact transgender and not gay (in those days, the 1970s, transsexual as it was known then) when I went to Germany for a holiday and met some transwomen in Hamburg. That's when the penny dropped and I finally discovered what, or who, I was. In those days transitioning was difficult and many barriers were put in my way so I resigned myself  to being unhappy for the rest of my life as I thought it would be impossible for me to become my true self but a few years ago I decided to research it online and realised I could still make that giant leap to become a new me so I went to see my doctor and got referred to a Gender Identity Clinic. I was put on hormone therapy, which included oestrogen and testosterone suppressants, and had facial hair removal, hair transplant, and now I've finally had full Vaginoplasty. I really didn't think I would get there but at last at the age of 61 I am now a fully functioning attractive heterosexual woman, and now I'm in the summer of my life when only a few years ago all I had to look forward to was old age and death. I know that sounds morbid but that's seriously how my mindset was in. You may not wish to go that far or even start on a new journey at all but anything can be achieved if you really want it enough. To think that I was so very nervous about going out in public dressed in female clothes and makeup, now I don't even think twice about it as now it's as natural as cleaning my teeth or brushing my hair. All the best Casey and DREAM BIG! Julie x

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(@casey)
Active Member     United States of America, Kansas, Johnson county
Joined: 5 years ago

<p style="text-align: center;">Julie. Thanks for telling  me your story. That's hits real close to home for me. I to suffer deep down inside. Trapped all my life and scared and nervous. But I cant overcome my inner feelings. They won't  diminish no matter how much I try to set them aside they are always there with me. I hurt and struggle constantly wondering if I am gonna die like this TRAPPED! They grow strong each  day every year. I don't  have a clue what the correct steps are or the path my life is taken or why all a I know is the is a true woman inside  me waiting  to come out and SHINE! I have so much running through  my head I can't  sleep and I get anxiety from it. For me it's not body parts it  about being able to express myself  ( ok the body parts are a huge bonus) and represent myself for who I truly am and what I have always been. I know it's never going to go away no matter what I tell myself.  I don't want to die this way! I want that that leap too!</p>
Thanks for listening.  🤗

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