My names Amy (chris) im 43 years old, I have been crossdressing since a child but I have realised for quite a few years now that I feel I'm in the wrong body, I have been married for over 20 years and have 2 children. My wife found out a couple of times that i have been wearing knickers and as she was struggling with just that i told her that i would never do it again. I would love nothing more than to transition into the woman that I know I am but I dont have the guts to admit / come out to the people I love and lose everything.
Hello Amy ,
Welcome to the site , it is great to have you join us . Like you many have started out the same way and it is not easy to deal with those struggles . Take it one day at a time the ladies and gents here are very supportive and can relate .
Alexis
Hey Amy
Some of my earliest memories are of dressing. Growing up in the early 1970s, I knew that I felt like a girl but of course I had no concept of sexuality or gender; it was a very confusing time.
I guess that's true of many of us on here, MTF and FTM alike.
However, I've always been Ellie, even though the world knows me by another name.
When I got older I began to come to terms with who I was. Finally hearing the word 'transgender', and realising that it applied to me, was an important moment. During my adult life I've never felt any guilt or shame about it. After all ... why should I? This is who I am, and I'm very happy being me π
Okay ... I'd accepted myself.
I started to wonder whether others might accept me as well.
Also, I was exhausted by all the hiding π
So, I came out to my Mum and one of my sisters. There's always a risk with that; no matter how well you know someone, you're never 100% certain how they're going to react. It's a terrifying thing to do. I was lucky, and both have welcomed the 'new me' with open arms.
Amy ... I'm wondering whether it might be an idea to raise your crossdressing with your wife and have a proper conversation. I know that you said that she struggled with the discovery of you in knickers. Looking ahead though, you ARE going to get caught again eventually ... and then she'll have to deal with the thought that you deliberately lied to her as well as dealing with the crossdressing. That will make it infinitely worse. She'll start wondering what else you might have lied about, and her imagination will take over. You could nip that in the bud with a well-timed conversation now. After all, she already knows about the knickers ...
Or, of course, don't! Only you can judge your own situation and you don't need uninvited idiots like me wading in and offering unsolicited advice.
I hope you figure everything out π
Hugs
Ellie x
Hello Amy,
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Glad you are here. Looking forward to seeing you on the site.
Terri Anne, Ambassador
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Thank you Ellie, some great advice which is needed. I definatly have alot to think about and work out what to.
Amy x
