Social Acceptance.

Hi Andrew , it's a mind " F " to want to be and feel female and yet going through a male puberty - when I was young around 18 I used to look at Penthouse and Playboy magazines not to get off as a male would but seeing my equipment was not like the images were dreaming of having the same was a brutal wanting desire to enjoy what they had - in 1981 I had a nervous breakdown at 23 years old couldn't eat, barely get up and go to the bathroom for 3 months , I was down to 148 lbs basically I was dying and in denial why I had an electrical shock of my hole body driving in Edmonton Alberta and went to a clinic then hospital where a nice big shot of Valium tempeeoray solved the issue - I waited about a decade long after both parents passed on and finally at 60 while in rehab started the process and in 2019 did the deed SRS-2 at the Kamol Hospital in Bangkok Jun.29 with other numerous surgeries since then -  there's never been a hug really the odd good luck - you have to be strong enough to want to be your real self - hormones take years and it's not how much you take - for the most part in the last 8 months I'm always addressed as " Mam " It's very natural now out and about and people sense this whether you look and feel comfortable and natural without overdoing it with clothing or makeup - I'm basically since 5 and have experienced well over a 1/2 century of gender dysphoria - I cheated lots with denial when younger but start by getting a diagnosis from a psychologist 1 st then get a referral from your GP to go see an endocrinologist for hormones after if you really want the change - I did and it's a rough road really and the changes take years like a second female puberty 5 years and I'm on my 3 rd but took plant estrogens for 20 plus years on my own but it still takes  years later to see full development on the real McCoy Estradiol  - if your truly Transgender female you'll know in your soul - I'm way happier now - be true to yourself and you'll be better off - XO - Krystal , Vancouver , BC