Technically new

I joined this site earlier this year, before I finally got everything situated to get approved to go on testosterone. I had just ran away from my family across the country and moved somewhere new with my partner that gave us an easier place to be ourselves and for me to start hormones. It also gave us a place to have our pronouns and chosen names respected (although sadly there are still people everywhere who do not show this respect, but it’s miles better than where I was before, rural West Virginia).

I didn’t get to know too many people when I first got on here, part of it was trying to navigate things, part of it being too busy, the other was I was still getting to know my real self unapologetically and not behind closed doors. Now I feel I have even more experience being my true self and understanding who I am. 

That being said, I’m looking to talk to anyone of any identity or background. We don’t have to commit to staying friends (though it is nice to feel less alone in the trans community), I’d be happy just getting to chat more with some of you about ourselves and our experiences. 
But I intend to start checking this regularly, either way, so feel free to message whenever. 

Some basic things to know about me are: my name is Hal, I’m transmasc (big likelihood I’m  intersex, too), I am 24 (25 in June), bisexual, I go by He/Him and sometimes it/its, but as I come into my true body and self more, I have dabbled in some crossdressing/role playing as female/feminine in the way that cis queer men do. It’s been very euphoric to let the worry of people’s toxic masculinity go and for people to see it as more of drag than telling me I am a woman for it.
Part of why I mention this is having male friends is great and something I need to regain, but also I wish to not be the “gay best friend” in secret anymore. Meaning, growing up knowing I was a man already and subconsciously trying to hide my male attraction and feminine interests; instead I want to be able to share and express and talk about feminine interests/culture with friends that are women. To learn more about womanhood as I never really experienced much of it. And when I did, I knew in my head I liked these certain things as a gay boy, but my family and friends did not see that as the truth.
Yet, sometimes when I did try to express feminine interests in front of them without them forcing me to, they found it to be weird and wrong as they were so used to me being masculine and acting “like a boy” my whole life. 

Normally I would apologize for being verbose but I think it’s nice to share experiences here. As for interests about myself, I enjoy reading, cleaning, cooking, baking, all the different types of psychology, playing some older video games, really love watching movies and keeping a list of what I’ve seen, I collect a lot of physical media or antique items, I love all kinds of music but have a soft spot for metal and dance pop,  but I also love cute things; pink stuff, hello kitty, y2k bimbo clothing and style, cute stuffies, etc. 

Some favorite artists/bands would be: Mortician, Alice In Chains, Mariah Carey, Black Sabbath, Type O Negative, Beyoncé, Christina Aguilera, etc. I have thousands of songs saved so I’ll leave it at these few and maybe we can chat about our other music interests.