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Best Friends with Jenny

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(@beth17)
Active Member     United Kingdom, Berkshire, Wokingham
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When I was nine years old I spent one idyllic summer in North Wales with my Mum’s friend and her son James. He was an only child and they owned a cottage in the countryside (a lot of the time we were actually looked after by his Nanny)

During our six week vacation we became friends with the two girls who lived on the farm down the road. Mary was eleven and Jenny was the same age as me. It didn’t take long for Jenny and I to become firm friends. We just seemed to click and would spend every daylight hour together.

We walked and ran through fields, built houses and boats for teddies, wrote funny stories, played schools, farms, hospitals, vets you name it we did it.

Jenny also liked playing football, cricket and was always climbing trees and getting her clothes dusty. She was also embarrassed that her wardrobe had dresses inside it and told me her mum bought them and made her wear them for church. Everybody described her as a tomboy.

I thought she was amazing and she could make me laugh until tears ran down my face.

She would often say things like being a girl was boring and that they can’t play football or be vets or drive tractors. I pointed out that she was better at football than I was and there was a girl called Anne in my class at school who was cleverer than all of the boys put together and she could definitely be a vet.

It upset me that she felt so down about being a girl. To me she had everything. She was a pretty girl, kind, funny and even seemed better at doing boy stuff than me! I would have switched places with her in a heartbeat. It didn’t occur to me that a girl might feel about herself  the way I felt about being a boy.

I don’t know if she was trans but she was unhappy with the limitations and expectations she felt were placed on her then.

One day, when we were playing by the stream, I told her I thought being a girl was just as good as being a boy and they can do everything boys can. This broke the “boy code” and I had to motivate myself to say it out loud. I was worried somehow everyone would find out and guess my secret by me saying it.

She just smiled at me.

The rest of the summer was filled with lots of fun activities interspersed with midnight feasts, ghost stories in the fields at 2am and amazing talent shows.

When it was time to go home I was devastated. She was the perfect friend I had always wanted. I could be myself around her in a way I had never been able before. I wish I had told her more about how I felt about myself.

It took a long time to get over losing her.

I do hope Jenny was able to find herself and be happy with who she was. I wouldn’t wish dysphoria on anybody.

I will never forget her.

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(@genevievetgh)
Eminent Member     Canada, Ontario
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Such a beautiful story Beth... Ty for sharing.

Gen ❤

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Noble Member     United States of America, Virginia, Front Royal
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Beth, that is a wonderful story. Any chance you have tried to find out where she is or what she is up to? I imagine that would be wonderful to re-connect. Michelle

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Active Member     United Kingdom, Berkshire, Wokingham
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Hi Michelle

I have tried a couple of times to find her again without success. I also tried reconnecting with my school friend to see if I could enlist his help.

I'm also not actually sure she would even remember me. Because of what I was going through, Jenny was such an important person to me at that time. Our friendship meant everything to me and I'm still trying to unpack what it all meant and why.

I probably didn't mean as much to her and that's ok.

 

Love and Hugs

 

Beth

xxx

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