Exhilaration and Serenity

Before I proceed with this article, I want to make it clear that I am so very happy with my life. Being in this place allows me the privilege to observe life from another perspective and one that I have fallen very comfortably into as my life moves further on.

Returning back to this site, also rejoining CDH as an Ambassador and Editor,
I have quickly noticed something that I hadn’t foreseen.

Something I hadn’t picked up on in my own life but can see it so clearly now I am here. Oooh! – good old hindsight, an odd word in itself and one we use that helps us process things we may have overlooked in the haze of daily life.

Some of you may already know me from my past involvement on this site, but for the others who don’t I will give a very short recap of myself to help establish my perspective on what I am about to write: Early life began with me dreaming and wishing I would turn into a girl overnight and awake as my real self. Clearly, that didn’t happen and I spent a repressed life cross dressing and seeking answers about myself. Two marriages and two children later, I found myself in a third relationship that brought me to France. That relationship also crashed and burned. I found CDH at the end of 2016, finally discovering who and what I was, and quickly moved on to transition. One year or so later, giving up CDH and jumping over to TGH, only to part company and focus on my life within a short space of time. My life is now on track, not quite a bowl of cherries, but I am very settled and happy in ways I had not known before.

And now for Exhilaration!

I understand quite well the life of being CD and all that goes with it, with my knowledge being refined and developed during my time here as an Ambassador and Editor a few years back. I had been back on CDH for just a few of days, but something jumped out at me while browsing parts of the site. It came from articles, posts in the news feed, messages and just about anything I explored. I was seeing the passion and enthusiasm, excitement and universal bond between the members. I saw the Exhilaration that I had also found and experienced during much of my life when cross dressing.

Where did it go?

It stayed exactly where is was! What happened in my case and maybe for others who have followed a similar path in transition – it became modified. When you are not able to be the person you need to be, the moments of transformation by dressing and wearing makeup etc., can have a very powerful and long-lasting impact on your senses and state of wellbeing – it’s no wonder it can be addictive for so many. The feeling that you get wearing such feminine clothing, lingerie, sensual fabrics, heels that put you directly in touch with your female side. Changing your mood, thoughts and actions allowing you, just for a while, to be that woman, feel those emotions, allow yourself to express yourself as never before. Such a range of overwhelming things that flood your brain in a sensual and physical way. Something I truly believe would benefit all men and the world, if they were to experience this for one week of their life!

Here comes the wave of Serenity It’s a gradual process like many changes that we go through in life, irrespective of who we are. Obviously, I am writing in relation to the kind of life that we know; in my case, moving towards Transition and part of the sister site TGH. This particular concept only revealed itself to me after retuning here and is still quite new, even for me. But, a view point that I found quite interesting, enough to want to write about it. It made me consider why feelings of Exhilaration happened much less now; or did I think of them as another feeling? I have arrived at a conclusion that what I experience now is simply different and is part of the many changes that I have gone through over the past few years. I have found a new freedom, one without the turmoil and conflict that troubled me; I now live every day in a way that makes me happy, allowing me peace of mind and a future that I look forward to.

The moments of Exhilaration have been substituted
with a long-term happiness that has shown me
that life has much more to offer, even at this late stage.

I have re-evaluated my complete existence on just about every level possible which has made me thankful and grateful for the things I have. Valuing the most important people in my life and the love I am able to give and receive.

I am content with the substitution and perhaps a little wiser too

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Born in London, England and a life long journey incorporating two marriages and a long relationship that eventually brought me to France. My two children and all of my family are fine with my choice to finally be the person I have always been. I am a creative, artistic soul who loves good food,cooking and real friends. Will I ever fall in love, will someone fall in love with me and does it matter? I have the love of my family and some very good friends in my life

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April King (@april-king)
2 months ago

Lovely telling Sophie.

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