MANY here have worked with therapists in order to help sort through what is going on for them. Our minds tend to resist change and will often go through great lengths to avoid it. That’s why it is difficult to figure out these things on our own.
Also, please complete your Profile page. Answers to the questions helps other members to understand your situation and what your goals are. Unlike regular posts, you can update the page at any time if something changes.
So, welcome and I hope you enjoy your time here!