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Many here have worked with therapists in order to sort through what is going on. The subject of transgender is a difficult and multi-faceted deal. Hard decisions need to be made and a therapist will help you focus on those where our minds have a tendency to avoid such things. However, what is needed is a therapist who has experience in gender issues.
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