Thank you Melanie, it was great to see a reply especially from someone who understands what I am dealing with. I have been trying to reply all morning but keep crying because it feels so nice to talk with someone who understands. I am still working on my wardrobe and trying to get my makeup right (right now I feel like I look like a fat version of Buffalo Bill) so I don’t go out much not that I ever did anyway I mean from time to time I will cowgirl up and put on some eyeliner and eyeshadow when I go out and be one of those people who wear sunglasses inside.
Like you, I never understood the appeal of sports, especially pro sports I mean a bunch of adults playing a game but also grabbing and slapping each other in ways that are not normally socially acceptable, just come out already. (Hey that’s kinda funny coming from someone who still has a death grip on the closet door jam I know)
I am still at the point where somedays I wake up and think Oh my Goddess what have I done why didn’t I keep my damn mouth shut, and then others I get to feel free and can openly watch Hugh Grant movies. There are the days when I just want to rip it off like a bandaid and go all out but the fear takes over and I slink back to my computer and video games.
Also, I forgot to say in the beginning I have Dyslexia and spellchecker and I do not always agree on what I am trying to type so forgive me if there are some spelling errors or words used incorrectly Grammarly can’t tell if I am trying to say does or dose sometimes.
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