I strongly think you need to seek a mental health professional right away. Call your local Woman’s Health Clinic, they usually have a transgender specialist on staff. You need to do this to obtain the “self” & “happiness” you desire.
First: You need help of a professional psychologist that specializes transgender woman issues.
There is a concept called “medical necessity”, where one’s health is in danger without medical intervention.
Second: Figure out what might happen next. I was undoing my whole life in self-destructive behaviors, I was ruining my marriage, I was collapsing my finances, and I was dead inside. Maybe I was suicidal, but building towards it slowly. I could easily gone there.
Get help. Not just here, but from medical professionals. I have been all the way out for eight months now, and many people still don’t really believe it; It doesn’t matter… I believe it right down to my pink panties.
I HAVE HELP! THAT HELP HAS BEEN CRITICAL!! I WAS ON THE WAY TO BECOMING SUICIDAL!
Yes, my life is very different then it was eight months ago, but I am no longer dead inside, no longer suicidal, and I am happy to be me as I discover all that that me is.
I am Lukcia Patricia Sullivan