Halie,
I don’t want you to go to a Cowboy bar, just the opposite! I studied Advanced Food Sciences at Texas A&M because the school is excellent for that subject. I hated the town. Too many high on testosterone men driving in too big trucks, dressing like they are on the range, and their attitude permeates many of the restaurants I visited.
I wanted to get Rainbow stickers and at night put them on all the truck bumpers. Another idea was a “Honk If Your Gay” bumper stickers. Of course if I was caught I would be dead.
I also strongly believe that every one of us has to have their own “Happy Girl Dance!” I do it in private most of the time, but sometimes in front of my wife. Stick out your titties, wiggle your hips, and wave your arms & fingers around as girlie as you can.. It is so liberating!!
Sometimes letting yourself be happy is the right medicine. “I put my hand on a dollar bill, but the dollar bill blew away…But the sun is shining down on me…and it’s here to stay Do you want to celebrate? Yeah…Yeah. Oh I just want to celebrate another day of living…” Rare Earth
Halie, Take care of yourself Girl.