Reply To: Welcome to Transgender Heaven

[Sarah Hamilton-Arrandale]

Hi, known I wanted to wear women’s clothing from an early age, around 12 onwards. But it’s only the passed couple of years (40’s) I have been brave enough to do it. I am a fit and active man and try and look the best I can. I love being dressed but feel mega guilty about doing it and even though I have let close people know and they have been very supportive. But I have also realised that the more I have relaxed with myself and been true to myself that its not just the clothes and they are not enough, I have come to uncover the truth I don’t want to accept, I am hoping to meet/chat to some people like myself, as I am honestly struggling to accept what this is and the impact on my life its going to have, but I know its the road I must take to actually feel some real happiness and self love that I have never had. I know I am not alone, but I feel like I don’t have the inner strength to go forward with this, I am bald and have been since 18/19, which was fine whilst being male all my life, but now its on my mind, how can I be a woman without hair?! I have booked in for a hair transplant and ill have to have two sessions, but I won’t see any benefits from this for another year or so and then all the time to grow the hair thereafter if its a success. I can’t put what I know on hold any longer, I have plans with my GF and kids etc and I keep thinking just after this next thing or after that, basically what I do with everything in my life, but I know deep down there is no good time or right way to do this, I know I am not alone in being scared, but I don’t know anyone personally in Manchester either who is going through this and I would love to find a community who can help give me strength x