Reply To: What age did you know you were transgender?

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I had the same dream each night starting around age 3 that I met a girl, and I wondered what it would be like to be a girl and she wondered what it would be like to be a boy; so we swapped.  And, then (in the dream) an adult came in the room and took me to fix my hair.  There I was with long curls, a dress, tights and Mary Janes.  I couldn’t go back to being a boy (both wasn’t offered the chance, and didn’t want to).

I had that dream each night for years.  Nightly, I prayed to God that I would wake up a girl, but obviously that didn’t physically happen.  when I was 4 or 5 my babysitter asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, and I said I wanted to be a mommy.  she told me that I was a boy, and I couldn’t grow up to be a mommy, I would be a “daddy”.  That made me very unhappy.  It was the first time I realized that I wasn’t going to grow up to be a woman, a mom, etc..

Then, when I was 5, my grandmother caught me (saw me wearing a dress).  She told me I was going to Hell because I was a “pervert”, and then read from the Bible to me.  That was heavy to carry around.

I was baptized as soon as my church would let me (when I turned 6).  I prayed to God to save me from Hell, and make me not want to be a girl.  Obviously, that didn’t happen.  So, I have lived someone else’s life as best as I could.  I have considered myself to be playing the cards I was dealt.  Perhaps, playing them badly, but doing the best I can to try to make life work for me.

The results have been hit and miss.

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