Yes, it was awful. He told me about it a few years after it happened, but before I was in the situation with my doctor. So, I was aware of it.
To be honest, I was worried they would try to have me committed, and if they wanted to they probably could have. I am not saying that I was a threat to others, but I was at times a serious threat for suicide. It would have been enough to hold me, and they would have had the resources to make it happen.
I had seen “One Fly Over The Cuckoo’s Nest”, and was worried I would end up locked away for life, which to me was worse than dying for sure.