I 100% understand where you are coming from. I have had maybe one or two dreams that I can vividly remember being a girl, and those are my favorite dreams to this day. Talking dreams, does “day” dreaming count, if so then that number increases significantly!
But I often wonder how “Trans” am I, because I find myself comparing myself to others, and that is unfair to ourselves. We have all been shaped by society and have some degree of phobia, which sneaks into our thoughts.
The only thing you need to be is true to yourself. I am still work I on that too.