I have to say I agree that there isn’t any way of moving forward without speaking to a therapist. And my wife too. Except I don’t want to have that conversation because that’s really admitting it to myself fully isn’t it? I realise I’m still trying to deny it. I don’t want this to happen to me. I keep putting reasons not to deal with it in front of myself. I keep telling myself it’ll be easier to keep ignoring my feelings and continue hiding and then I hate myself for not owning the issue and being more mature about it. Thank you for taking the time to give me your opinion.