Thanks for posting this. I feel the same way. I’m at the start of this journey aged 45 because I can’t cope in the closet any more. I nearly told my wife tonight but the timing wasn’t right. My heart was doing about 200 per minute. So I haven’t told anyone yet and the dysphoria is present every day at the moment making it hard to concentrate n anything. I’m very scared too so it must be normal. I hope we both get supportive responses but if not we will find a way to make it work.