Just read the June 10th post. I hope you are still doing OK and the shock had dissipated a bit. Sometimes Girl you have to seem selfish and put yourself first if you don’t then things break often badly. I’ve been there.
My advice is to come out and embrace Lukcia for as much of the time as you can. The longer you take the more painful it becomes – I’ve heard this and my ‘coming out’ was telling people to going full-time socially in six weeks. Work was longer as the Company had a policy in place so colleagues knew but I presented male until I could present female without looking (and feeling) stupid. Get working on your voice early and it’ll make everything else easier.
Good luck to you girl I don’t regret my change one bit.