So, growing up in an abusive environment led to among other things having the simple act of crying literally beat out of me. In all the years from then until now, I’ve been unable to cry. Sad movie? Nothing. Bad news? Nope.Fired? Nada. Grandmother dies? Not so much as a tear.
I have had literal years of therapy. I’ve begged some to help me reconnect with the simple and therapeutic act of release by crying. Nope, not one was willing to. More than one telling me that we had better things to focus on, or saying it is counter productive… (my gender therapist plans to start helping with this after I get into the HRT a little further)
so I WELCOME the tears. I feel like I will be able to be be human again.