Reply To: Can you miss your old fake identity?

[Alexandria (AKA Alex)]

Interesting question:
Those hormones play havoc with your emotions, one day I feel 100% woman…and the next a complete fraud. Especially rainy days when full makeup is a waste of time…and having to STILL wear a face mask in shops. A big old raincoat and size 10 shoes. I see myself in a shop mirror and think really are you so new Alex? The former me is still there…and I’m not changing my name or running from my past. You can’t can you… not really.
If I can’t convince my friends and family I was living a lie, how can I ever convince myself? I still live my old life but on my gender terms. My old identity was not a fake…just the way I lived it. Or is that Just me?