Glad that you have returned. You know, the only thing that we can do is realize our truth. We can dance around it and suppress it for only so long, but it will resurface again and again until we deal with it. Sounds like that is what has occurred to you. That doesn’t make it any easier, but it does place us on the right path and in the right direction to move forward.
However, as always there are a multitude of factors that effect our thinking and decisions. For you, and many others here, there are significant familial considerations. There are no easy answers, but one thing that I will say is that is that calm, rational and deliberate thought is what is needed. The goal is to make the best decision that you can and that is all that we can do.
Many here have enlisted the services of a therapist. A therapist won’t solve your problems for you but they will help you work through the things that you need to think about and help put things into perspective. Note that you want to find someone with experience in gender issues. While there are many good therapists out there, all do not have this particular expertise or interest.
I appreciate your completing the Profile page. It is helpful for other members as it establishes where things sit for you. Know that the page will always be readily available and you can update it at any time if something changes.
If you would like to search for other members near you, click on Social in the menu and then Member Directory…