Reply To: What age did you know you were transgender?

[Toni Hill]

This is a question I find provokes a lot of thought and reflection on life’s journey so far. Really until recently I hadn’t realised I was actually trans. I have lived my life this far being unaware why I have felt so much dislike of my male exterior and never really fitted in with male company.  Looking back over the years I remember wishing I was a girl probably from about 5 or 6 that feeling has never left me but I had no knowledge of my being transgender. I repressed these feelings and got on with my male life. I have been married twice and together we raised 3 children. All my adult life I have cross dressed when alone but just thought it was a thing I enjoyed rather than being an expression of my gender. The feelings of gender dysphoria and desire to be female have increased so much over the past couple of years. I now believe the depression I have been treated for over the past 20 years is due to gender dysphoria. I’m now 60 and going through the steps to medically affirm my gender . Already taking these positive steps has helped.
I guess my constant research on transition especially some of the content on YouTube has helped me realise my true self.
In a nutshell, I have known something was not right with me since my childhood . I thought of myself as non binary about two years ago but now know I am transgender.