December 31, 2021 at 1:13 pm #123967
The part I think I regret most is the “kink” side — allowing myself to deem it a fetish and sexualize it. I think that prevented me from realizing who and what I was as it related to gender identity and had I not dismissed it — sure, I could be in a very different place right now.
That said — “shoulda-coulda-woulda” is an exercise in futility. I can only spend the time I have left and where I am now looking forward, not backward.