Hi Marsha, did you mean to have the votes both “Yes”? If so that’s cute! I would vote maybe. Some crossdressers have intense affetion with things feminine. I have been a life-long (but very sporadic) CD myself. I think about 6-7 years ago something changed in my mind, but I repressed it until about a year ago. I began secretly dressing again and realized through therapy that it is more than just a deire to crossdress. I committed to HRT right after Thanksgiving, and other than my wife of 40 years not being totally onboard, I feel at peace with the decision. I haven’t started on estrogen yet, but I’m sure it will bring the further calm and inner happiness I’ve not had for as long as I can remember.
If you believe your life will be very unhappy or intolerable living as a man, then you will benefit from pursuing transitioning (it may be just be living full-time as a woman with no further change, it may be a course of HRT, it may be having some feminization procedures to your body, or it could be getting everything done and living “fully” as a transwoman). Only your therapist and medical team can really answer these questions, but as you discuss it with them, be completely open and honest – “I do want this, I don’t want that” so they can give you the optimum care.
Welcome to the site and I hope you can find the answers you seek!
Hugs,
Brielle