I have been in prison for 19 years and finally got released on Dec 27th, of last year. I am a 65 yr old Hispanic Veteran, who knew since the age of 7 yrs old that I should of been born a female. I never let anyone about it, because I buried those feelings deep down inside and tried to fit into the male role, so that I could have friends and hang around them. I put on a mask as a male to be able to be accepted, but it was destroying me in the inside.
I was married twice and had children from both ex-wives in order to be able to be accepted in the group. Neither of my ex’s or children know about me. I had it hidden for about 50+ yrs, before I decided that I couldn’t keep it hidden anymore.
So in 2015, while still in prison, I finally came out and let everyone know about me being a transgender. While in prison, I got myself classified as a transgender and got alot of hassles from other inmates at first, but wanted to fight for that, but I thought that I would be the one paying the price for fighting. As time, went by, I just didn’t let it bother me what they were saying. I did get classified in prison, but I had to keep on them to get it done because they were giving me the round around.
I have never been a transgender in the community and this is a new experience for me. I have no family or friends, so I had to do everything by myself and it isn’t easy especially with the virus. Everything is done by appointments and some of them are around 1 to 2 months before you can be seen. I already have my state ID and Social Security Card with my legal name and I am working on getting screened for SSI and Retirement because of my age, also trying to apply for Medicare.
I have no kind transportation of my own and have to take the bus to wherever I need to go. I am trying to learn the bus routes, so that I can get out more often. It is hard especially if you don’t have nobody to help you with that.
I want to let you know that you look very beautiful in the pictures you sent me and I am glad to have you as a friend. Some of the other transgenders that I have met, they don’t really want to keep in contact with me and I don’t understand why. I am the quiet type person, who isn’t looking for attention or to be noticed. I mind my own business and I will talk to anyone who wants to know about who I am, or just to have a conversation.
I am getting adjusted to this new surroundings and will never regret who I am because this was the way I wanted to be since 7 yrs old. All my family is passed away and I am the only survivor left. I never got a chance to let my family know about me and I feel bad because I had that secret hidden for so long. Growing up where I am from, I probably would of not be alive now, as this was not known at that time, like it is now.
I now see the world in a totally different way than I used to as a male and I am happy to finally be who I really am, I don’t care what others think or say. I have been judged by the so-called real Christians. I know that God must have a purpose for me, being who I am now and He will let me know at His timing what my purpose is.
I have been a Christian since 1989 and only left God for about 2 yrs, because I blame Him for everything that was wrong in my life. At that time I was doing Bible Correspondence Courses and I wanted to get rid of everything, but something inside said no, keep them and put them away. I tried other different religions, but I didn’t feel comfortable. Around the end of the 2 yrs, all of a sudden, I got back to doing the Bible Courses and up to now I am still doing them. I know that God loves me no matter what I have done in my life and I will not leave Him again.
I guess this is all I can think of letting you know about me. Will you tell me more about yourself. Hope to hear from you soon. May God bless you and thank you for being a friend.
Reply To: Hi! I’m Allie-Jane
Join Our Community
Meet others in the transgender community, make friends and share your true self with others. Transgender Heaven has a vibrant community, with more than 3,000 members and dozens of daily posts and transgender topics to explore.
Chat, share photos and live your authentic life.
Chat with the Transgender Community
New in the Transgender Heaven Forums
We may receive a commission for purchases made through links to our sponsors. This helps us maintain Transgender Heaven and provide a safe, welcoming and supportive place for the community.
Just for FTM Members
Share Your Opinion
So far, 52 users voted.
No one has voted yet.
So far, 4 users voted.
- Affirmative Surgery
- Am I Transsexual?
- Breast Enhancement
- Brina's thoughts
- Details That Make The Difference
- Editor's Choice
- Emotional Transition
- Events and Conferences
- Facial Feminization Surgery
- Friends and Family Situations
- Gender Roles
- Going Full Time
- Hope and Light
- Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT)
- Media Review
- Outings together
- Physical Transition
- Real World Issues
- Scholar Program
- Self Development
- Trans Aid
- Transgender Heaven announcements
- Transgender Life
- Transgender News
- Transitioning Advice
- Your Weekly Reset