Welcome, and hang in there! This is a good place to find some of the emotional support you need, and there are lots of women here who can provide great insight about your path forward and the adjustments you need to make. Baby steps are fine; I recommend them. Sort out those feelings and decide where you want to go and how to express your female self. But warning: they are not going to go away, only probably get stronger. It would take a powerful lot of drugs to cage Jane again.