Hi Lauren, will they not even consider the patches? I know shots and pills are out for me also, but so far, I’ve done well on the patches. Also, if you considered an orchiectomy, you may not need a high dose of estradiol to get you where you want.
For me, passing is a part of it, but I mostly want to not feel the constant negative feedback I have from my dysphoria. I have to say that just this week, I may have turned a corner. My wife wants her own space (maybe permanently) which would have led me to a total meltdown even three months ago. I don’t want it to happen, but I want her to feel safe and independent so I am basically okay with it. Maybe the estradiol is giving me a less-volatile response to bad events.
I hope you can find your “happy spot” and have peace. It’s what we all deserve!