Hello Lindsey , welcome – I gather by your pronoun preferred name that your M to F but functioning in stealth because of marriage – a lot seem to do the socially acceptable thing based on physical sex they are and get married hoping to thwart a mind that was wired from birth for a certain gender – I’m sure if you think back as a young child there were signs , situations but like myself new not to push the limits of parents and others of a natural sense of being – it’s like having a physical Steve Jobs designed computer platform , the mechanical aspect but trying to run it with a Bill Gates Microsoft programming , the two don’t match each other to function , not compatible – I new I was hard core M to F transgender at 5 years old early 1960’s and wouldn’t date let alone get married later in life , never felt gay and new the ramifications , I showed signs I’m sure but my parents born in the 1920’s ideology of thinking didn’t know what to do with me , so I tried to fit in , didn’t work , I just wanted my body female , it’s not a dirty thing but society forces a person to be what they expect you to be based on genitalia at birth and so starts your life – I missed a lot of life because of this issue – a true transgender person can never escape there basic programming – many get married and do the baby thing but that desire naturally is always there – XO – Krystal G , BC , Canada
Nope. I have ruminated on my life extensively over the past three or so years, and there is nothing I can think of that would have indicated I might take this turn later in life. I never dressed as a kid or had any sort of desire to play at cross gender roles. No desire to dress as a teen nor as a young adult when opportunities abounded, nor as an adult when again opportunities abounded. I can’t be absolutely certain the “idea” never crossed my mind as a child. I am, however, pretty sure it never did as a teen, young adult or adult. I do remember being mortified at being dressed as a witch for one Halloween. I did not want to go that night. Puberty and teen years were not all that traumatic for me. Worst of it was zits. As I said, late onset.