Well , it seems like there’s something else going on in your life creating a false gender dysphoria , your response doesn’t indicate being true transgender then – the only thing is to go to a Mental Health Specialist ( psychiatrist-psychologist ) and work things out as good as you can ?
Hmm. No room for gender fluid in your World view? No room for notions such as late onset? I’ve seen reference to it, but I haven’t found anyone of like or even similar situation or experience. Nor can I find any detailed analysis.