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Unfortunately gender fluidity is not well understood at this point. I liken it to multiple personalities in that we recognize the various personalities and we notice when it happens, but we don’t have a clue as to what causes the shift. Obviously something happens, but what?
Rest assured that there are others here in similar circumstances where their family situations have a great deal of influence on what they do going forward. Also, many here have utilized professional help. Our minds are tricky. It is often hard for us to look at issues objectively because some decisions may involve considerable changes in our lives. Our minds usually work in such a way as to protect ourselves. Maintaining the status quo, and not taking action, is often the way this plays out. What a therapist does is help you maintain focus on the topics that need to be considered and look at them in a more objective way. That doesn’t necessarily make things easier, but developing an understanding does help. However, it is important to find a therapist with experience in gender issues. Not everyone has that experience and expertise.
Are you connected with the trans community in your area? There may be some support groups in progress. Many places are doing support groups through teleconferencing and you may find that useful.
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Multiple personalities. That’s exactly how I have described it in my journal over past three years.