May 30, 2022 at 5:32 am #130986
Great question! for me it’s both. i’ve had the physical attraction as an AMAB does, but when i see a beautiful woman i also feel envy because i want to be her. that feeling has become most predominant for the last 10 years or so and that tells me i was deeply in gender dysphoria then. when i was younger i was pretty inept at dating and pretty inexperienced in sex until i got married. i knew part of the reason was my feminine feelings which caused me to hold back for fear of being outted.