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For many, it is difficult to plot a course forward. Our minds tend to want to think about things that have the potential for great upheaval in our lives. Many here have found that it is very useful to work through things with the help of a therapist. However, it is important to find someone with experience in gender issues as not everyone has that background.
I encourage you to complete your Profile page. It helps other members to understand your situation better.
Also, you can search for other members in your area by clicking on Social in the menu and Member Directory.
Are you connected to the trans community? These days there are many trans support groups and social gatherings that take place on line. That can help if there isn’t anything close…