Dana, this is brilliant!
You sure know how to use a nail gun. Only a few years separate our near-identical lives. It does seem like a holding pattern, doesn’t it? Sometimes I think I’m going to CRACK for keeping it together for all these years. And I agree the crossdressing doesn’t help, it just makes it worse.
Funny… I just told a very dear friend today that I’m happy being transfeminine and not necessarily transgender. I may be wrong about that. I too should probably talk with someone.
Would it be weird to say this is joyfully painful??